Life throws us loads of opportunities and gives us loads of choices every single day. What we choose really depends on what we want or how much we like it. However, sometimes, life is just tough on you and you are forced to take up this route that is given and it screws up with your current plan, changing priorities in life, making you have to take up a choice which you really do not want to. But life still goes on, it’s just how you take it up and go even further with what is given.

There’s so much going on inside me right now. I know I have awesome people in my life who are always there for me, always giving me the advices and perspectives that I need to see my life in a better way and I am really thankful for them but at the end of the day, I still have to walk this path alone.

Few months back, I made the decision to focus my last few months before entering university on RC, taking up as many events as I can to gain as much experience with the people I love spending time with (yeah,overestimated myself). I even quit my job at the centre because I will not be able to commit the time when I looked at my schedule hence my last day was on the 25th of May. With the plan to leave, I took up a job that is flexible but because I have to commit at least 3 months, I took it up at the start of May so I can quit at July and just in time for school. During the month of May, it was really a hectic time for me, rushing to work after work, rushing to meetings around the end of the day’s work, nights were for doing up RC stuff and I don’t have the time to rest properly,except on some rare Sundays. What made it all worse was that I was sick at that period of time (am still sick) and I cannot get round to recover because I cannot afford the time to rest.

So now, with the job at the centre gone, I feel so less burdened because I only have to focus on the 3 key events and the job. But life just have to get tougher. I couldn’t get into any local universities and SIM offered me a slot for the course I applied for and the degree is only for 2 years if I take up bridging courses. But guess what,bridging classes are starting right on the last day of my camp and I heard that it’s a Mon-Sat thing. I looked at my schedule and it just screws everything up for me, everything that I planned to do.

School,RC,job. I don’t even have time for myself. All I can think about is Red Cross stuff since I’m taking up higher roles and I already promised to commit for it and yet I cannot deliver because of school. My life is kinda messy now. The next two months are going to be really really tough for me. I hope I can forge through everything and come out stronger.

No time for myself, no time for any relationship and what’s most scary is no time with family and friends. Every single day, my schedule is just so packed I don’t even have time to rest. I guess this is life’s present to me for my 21st.

Just close my eyes and push a little further..